ptogress?

 

Is still progress. Let's go. Two step Well, I'm still learning. How do use this? It just seems to me like every day I have to start over and it's making me a little uncomfortable. I wanted it to be easy and I know it will be as I use it every day. Anyway I was saying two steps forward. One step back is still. Progress. So I had two days when I was very interested in improving my daily life. And then yesterday I just sat and snacked and. Fell right back into the. COVID isolation mode. It's OK. I know that learning to be well again is something I need to practice. Like everything else that that involves. Change habits don't change overnight. You have to work at it. You have to be patient with it. You have to be willing. To put up with the days when things don't work, and I know that so well, I've reinvented myself so many times. It's incredible. And yet I continue to be the best I can, even when it doesn't look like it.

 

Watching juju with her new toys. Reminds me. Of me in this. Isolation mode. She's frantically doing nothing. Grabbing a new toy, playing with it furiously. And yet nothing changes. I need to talk to myself about. What I can do to feel good at the end of the day? Yesterday I ate a lot of carbs. Today I'm back to protein and vegetables. I didn't stoop to potato chips at least. I don't have any housework to do. I don't have any. Appointments to keep. I don't have any calls to make. I don't have anything to mark on the calendar and that's part of the problem. I like having things to do. I like looking forward to plans. I like looking to be ready for something new. And the sitting every day has just become. I have it. At least I'm not depressed anymore. I don't. I'm glad when there is something to do. And as soon as the weather improves just a little bit, I'll be back to daily walking outside. Meanwhile, I'll do the best I can inside. that's it that's all i wanna talk about today so you can now

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