who am i?

 

Happy New Year to me. It's my birthday. I'm 87 years old today. I am a woman of essentially good health who wants to process the last two years of my life. Using Kay Adams prompts as a way of. Undoing some of the things that are in my mind that are. Losses and realize that everything that happens happens for a purpose.So I'm going to begin and I'm just going to talk. I'm not gonna edit. I'm not going to revise. I'm just gonna put down whatever going on in my mind at the time

 

 

 

The first thing that happened. Was getting rid of my car. I've owned a car since I was 15 years old. Now I'm don't have a car anymore. I sold it to the person down the street who loves it dearly and takes very good care of it. But it's strange to me to not have a car and now I've have learned how to ask for help, how to get places without doing it myself. I quit driving because I found myself feeling uncomfortable. Kind of like I was out of place. And I realize it's because I have something going on in my brain that can drop me on the sidewalk without any notice and people with that. Possibilities certainly don't belong behind the wheel of a car. So that was number one.

 

Number 2. Was the beginning of the COVID. Pandemic. And all that that entailed. For our whole world and for us right here at home, Chuck was the first one to realize how serious this was, and he helped us by stocking things, by helping us be cleaner, by staying home. We started wearing masks early. We've been very careful. I only get to go to the store at 7:00 AM occasionally, otherwise I'm in isolation. And it's been a long time. I'm kinda getting too used to it. If you know what I mean. Sometimes I think just too much TV and too much time to just be alone is not the best thing. It's one of the reasons that I want to do this. Writing is to figure out how to do it better, my isolation better because it's going to, it's going to last. It's not over yet. So I'm going to work on. Some discipline. Some exercise. Some business. Maybe teach another creative writing class. Expand socializing to the extent that is possible. Try to keep my brain busy because I notice how fast brains can stop. Feeling. Useful. When I forget something or if I have a nonfluent moment, I start thinking that my brain is not working well and I need to do something about that.

 

The third thing that happened. Was the multi generational multi household moving? Megan bought a house and moved out of the little house. So I moved in Chuck, and Holly moved from their trailer in Hiuchi and moved into the house. And at first it took a while. I wasn't used to. This the changes. Yes, I did live in this little house before, but it was much long ago. And now I'm very comfortable here. Got a new heater yesterday that's made my life better already. And I love having Holly next door and I'm getting used to Chuck. We've had some good talks and I kind of understand his where he's coming from. Megan is happy in her house with her chickens and her ducks and her man, and Ben has been the best thing for her. He's. A partner with her. And it's the first time she's had a partner, and not just a man. And I'm really pleased for her. So that's what I'm going to do. I'm going to write blurt, not fix just. write whatever comes into my mind as i read these prompts and i'm going to to them.

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