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I am working so hard to learn this computer and every morning it seems like it takes me an hour to get all the wheels turning and usually it's. Maybe that isn't turning the wheels to the right direction. I will succeed in making friends with this computer and using it easily and finding my way around in it without all this waiting and fussing and. Pacing and saying bad words about a machine.

 

Yesterday's birthday, our New Year's, as I call it, celebration was wonderful. Acknowledgement. Lots of. Real birthday cards, flowers, candy, but best of all, was family happy hour where we just get together with Ben and Megan, Chuck and Holly and me. And we find family stories to tell. Eat wonderful snacks and drink some wine. I enjoyed every minute of it. I showed Holly where the Money Box was that my father saved and so they played with the old money for awhile and that was kind of nice. I think it made Holly interested in doing some research on some of those old coins.

 

I thought about what I wrote yesterday and realized that I am so ready for some improvements. Some changes in my life that will make it more interesting, more stimulating. More healthful? I need more exercise and I need to do it by gradual increments so I don't burn out in the first few days. This morning already I've used my chair exercise that the doctor gave me. I've used my rebounder to get some steps and as soon as it gets a little warmer outside I'll go around the block again. Yesterday I wasn't very successful. I got very tired and I only made it to tonight 10th St. Today I'll do better. I'm not gonna edit this writing. It's stream of conscience. Whatever. I'm thinking it's gonna come out. I'm not gonna correct the mistakes. I'm not gonna add any punctuation the way it is is the way it's gonna be. So what am I doing today? Planning those little increments that I just discussed. I will get more than 5000 steps today. I will watch my calories and my sugar and salt and all those things that I've been warned about that are fun. I really wanted some potato chips yesterday and I resisted. But I did eat the chocolate. Frosting off from my cupcake. I've been noticing that. My stamina is way low. And I think it's from sitting for so many weeks with no motivation, no good weather, no particular reason to do anything about it, because one day is so much like the next day and the day before after that. So I need to change that mentality and make each stay meaningful. And I can do that. I think my simple goal, the long range one is. I want to go to bed at night feeling that I have done the best I can for my life, for my body, for my family. And even for my community, even though I'm not able to do any volunteering right now, I still feel I'm part of everything and I wanna get back to some kind of activities that include me in my outside of the house. That's it for today. Took me all that time to get this thing up and running and that's all I have to tell it today, so I will write the words that I spoke. And they will last until I otherwise give notice. So off to spend Saturday on a cold, cloudy day with rain insight.

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